C.O.N.S.E.N.T.

Do you wish my hate and contempt?
Are the words I uttered unheard?
Are you deaf or just uncomprehending?
No means no and you are not in control of me.

Have I not be clear when I said it so?
When I say no and you push your suit,
When I push you away and you taunt me,
You said I wanted it when I didn’t.

There are limits for my tolerance,
And it’s shorter now after staying with you,
You make me feel guilty when I shouldn’t be,
You blame me, yet you’re the one at fault.

You call me selfish, again and again,
To my face and behind my back.
I know I am granted what I want and need,
But your ego is on another level.

I’m hating you and hating my decisions,
I will end this soon and you will know it.
Because I’m hating you and I’m blaming you,
For the wrongs I suffer when I am with you.

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Why do we stay?

I tried imagining it,
What you see when you look at me,
When on my lips you hear a whisper,
A constant promise of me leaving.

I try hearing my voice with your ears,
What you hear when I sing,
When my songs are of flying,
Away from here, away from you.

I wonder why you stay,
I might be barren, my life fleeting.
I can promise you today,
And we can only dream of tomorrow.

I am selfish and unkind,
Not even beautiful or alluring.
I nag you and criticize you,
And yet you insist that I stay.

Tell me your reasons and wishes,
When you choose to cage me when I wish to leave.
I do not wish to hate you,
When you promise me your future and not my dream.

Bitter Pill You Gave Me

I’m here to pursue my dream,
And I’m shouting it to you.
I ain’t here to nag you clean,
‘Til you pick up your pieces, too.

You will never hold me back,
I will not choose to stay here.
You may give me comfort and lies,
But you will never give me fear.

Because I yearn to be of help,
To people other than me,
To the children who might shape,
The future we long to see.

Because the love I gave you,
Fell to an ungiving heart.
Although it is sad to part,
I must save my heart from you.

My heart wants to give and teach,
And nurture those I can reach,
While you refuse to let me care,
For your unforgiving heart.