Making room for someone else

I check myself and found out,
I was writing a lot about you,
So I asked myself why,
And I found out my reasons.

I spent a lot of time with you,
Full of anger and sadness,
Sometimes with void I can’t explain,
And my lack of will to live.

I didn’t like what we were,
And you didn’t want to let go,
Because I was your beacon and driftwood,
And you didn’t want to drown.

And I noticed one time,
You can live on your own,
With no need for my support,
But you still wouldn’t let go.

I was useful and beneficial,
With my resources and company,
I was a trophy and a mannequin,
Just for you to show off.

Then I thought again,
I never wrote happy things,
When I thought about you,
Because I wasn’t happy at all.

And I only wrote happy things,
When I look at the future,
Places you wouldn’t be in,
And times you wouldn’t be around.

And now that I’ve left you,
I will exhaust all this angst,
My anger against you,
Then I’ll be writing about someone else.


Motivating myself

I’m sorry I haven’t updated this blog regularly, I was still organizing my thoughts and what I want for this year. It was actually a very unhealthy year for me last year and I want to change things up for 2017. I’m taking a course soon, and if I’m crazy/not-lazy enough I might add in doodles because I really need to practice drawing everyday or I won’t be able to use my hard earned skills(very expensive lessons).

Thank you for your likes and follows, I really appreciate it and it keeps me pumped up to update this as often as I can. I am actually an employed person(shock). Sorry for my fiddling skills in writing, I do this mostly to let off steam because I am not good at expressing myself and my thoughts. I try, but when I do, I regret it later on so I’d rather not, that’s why I’m here.

Let’s make 2017 a better year! We’ll be our better selves and then we’ll change the world one smile at a time! (Although my poems are gloomy, sorry) Let’s do our best!