Good bye to ex-

If I scrolled down far enough,
I would meet you again,
On my timeline and messages,
In my phone and my memory.
If I went to your street,
I can see you as soon as I want.
If I knocked at your door,
You would let me in.
But I’m not allowing myself.
No matter how lonely it gets,
This life and my battles,
Are mine alone now,
And your life and your battles,
You can no longer dump them on me.
I grew up from learning from you,
From learning not get used by you,
And I will never go back to you,
Because I choose to build myself,
And build my own life,
No longer revolving around yours.
Because you had me,
But you did all the wrong things,
You kept on using me,
Disguising it as love,
But it wasn’t.
I was just attached to company,
To history and false promises.
They were all empty things,
You were just using me,
To fill your void that’s not my problem.
So, goodbye,
And good riddance.

My silence

I wish to live for myself,
To have a will of my own,
To not be manipulated,
To simply do as I please.

I will have happy hours,
Reading book after book,
Steady white noise,
With turning pages for interruption.

To play all the music I wish,
To say what I want,
To be who I want,
I have no need for your expectations,

I am my own woman,
And I will live my life,
I will claim this silence,
It’s beautiful without you.